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Last Thursday I saw an optometrist about my persistent changes (or as it seemed, worsening) of my vision. After having a "corneal topography" (essentially, staring into a tube full of bright, red, concentric circles in a bright yellow matrix while holding my eyes open really wide), the doctor determined that I have Keratoconus. (More info from the National Keratoconus Foundation.)
I'm told the remedy is hard contact lenses. And I was just getting used to the spectacles...
Christmas was good this year. The kids had a great time – they love their grandparents, and the feeling is mutual. We got to see my uncle, aunt, and cousins. (Yes, I have a first cousin that is younger than my son.) The kids had lots of fun playing together as well (though they were definitely done with each other by the end.) No major conflicts, either.
Now on to Christmas Part II: the in-laws. Something tells me that this year, it won't go nearly as smoothly.
Last night Jannean and I took our daughter to the emergency room. She wasn't responding to the breathing treatments as well as we had hoped, and after giving four of them to her over the course of the night it was time to seek help. We could hear on the drive over though that her condition was improving rapidly as the medicine was finally taking hold. When we got there, the triage nurse took her vitals and determined she was not in any danger, so rather than wait eight hours ('tis the season, after all) to see a doctor we went home and went to bed.
Breathing is something I have always taken for granted. I'm beginning to learn that it is not always as easy as I once believed. We are breathing a lot calmer now (daughter is on the mend.) But I have a lot more to learn about breathing...
I have not been myself of late.
My greatest value is integrity, but I have broken important promises.
I used to have a vast well of patience to draw from, but I have lost my temper over small, predictable things.
I have done big things and little things that have been out of character with who I am.
I haven't taken the time for self-care that I should, and it is showing.
In short, I've lost some of myself somewhere, and I need to find it again.
(This seems like a recurring theme in my life...)
Okay, gotta get my blog back on...
To the beneficent administrators of this box, I have upgraded MT to 3.2, basically eliminating my spam problem (and the CPU bandwidth it chewed up.) Current comment policy is TypePad only, let me know if you have alternate suggestions.
So I've scrapped my old templates, and totally reimported the data (rather than dealing with a painful migration), so I'll have to build up what I want in my templates again.
At any rate, I'm back. Now to get real.